I am in the process of writing a blog entry about my experiences with ADHD- entry which should have been published yesterday, but it's now taking over a day to finish. If this is not the definition of irony, idk what is .w.
At least it's gonna be a somewhat long entry, not like this one poqkfeqpofk -w-
I found myself looking at my website a few mins ago, and then a realization hit me: this(the website) is the "most me" thing I have as of now. It has a very authentic "About Me" section, it's full of pink and cutesy stuff ("uwu", "nya~", ":3", etc), and every avatar I've made for myself is feminine-presenting with exaggerated eyeliner.
Either because of ADHD getting in the way, or the transphobia in my household, or just my own anxiety; I never really end up expressing myself. So, this thing I've made has come to be the highest form of expression I have at the moment. It's kinda depressing, in a way, but I don't feel much about that rn; I'm just making an observation.
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I should write an entry on magic(occult); I'm pretty sure I even added the "magick" tag on my website- yet I still haven't shared a thing about my practice yet. I don't know what I should share though, I'm quite jealous of my magical theory, but anywayyy -w-
Time to go to sleep. It's late.
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If the timing is right- I will record my first video tonight(in the morning hours). And then proceed to bullshit my way through editing, and post it (at some point) -w-
Feeling quite low on mental energy lately. I have not recorded shit, nor have done much else other than changing the formatting of my website here and there pqkefpoeqf
I guess this is a matter of waiting till my brain decides to allow me to work on my projects- meanwhile, I'll just preserve whatever progress I already have, to resume my work as soon as I am able. This is kinda the only tactic I ever developed to deal with my ADHD; saving progress of my projects, so that no matter for how long I abandon them, I can -at any point- come back to them and keep working on it just from where I left.
Anywayyy- have a cool song: [Rockabye / Yi Xi (SynthV Original)]
bah-byyyye!!!
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Had a nice day, but now I'm tired af -w-
Played some Minecraft after quite some time, and had a great time. Also- THIS time(tonight, past midnight) I will record something- I hope🐱
Anyway: my daily views are decreasing, mostly because I haven't been updating my website that often. I'll try to do better.
I FINALLY finished the ADHD blog entryyyy!!! [click here]
I, at last, made the fucking recording of my first Youtube video-. It's a Minecraft gameplay -w-
I have to edit it now-, I think it'll be done tomorrow.
# Burnout.
Yk, I'm grateful for the burst of energy I got the other day (recorded my first gameplay, and also finished the [ADHD entry]), but it also gave me fucking burnout TwT
Now I have zero energy to keep updating my blog, and I'm struggling to edit the video I recorded (to publish it).
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My sleeping schedule is so fucked poqkefpoeqofpeq (context: I am going to sleep at like 2pm, sleeping till midnight)
Hopefully I can fix this before Monday- to go to university and stuff.
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# H o r m o n e s :3
A few days ago, I went to my local hospital, and asked about if my medication(estradiol) is available now, and- it's on the way!
They told me it'll probably be available by the 10th of next month uwuuu
Happy birthday Alex, fly high king.
Today I learned it is Techno's birthday, because of a [Youtube tribute to him]. I'd love to make a tribute to him too, since, even though I didn't get to enjoy his content for long before his passing, he means a lot to me. Idk if I'll have the time to, though, but I'll try -w-
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I'm in the process of reading The Witcher: The Last Wish.
I've been wanting to get back into reading since quite some time. Mostly because I know it helps prevent cognitive decline, and, it helps expanding vocabulary and stuff. I wouldn't say it actually makes one "smarter", in the full sense of the word, but it helps ig.
Also, I have not much to do right now, since there's 40 mins left before going to class.
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I want a ferret army to take over the U.S and become the Supreme Emperor Gay🐱
As mentioned previously, my estrogen is gonna be available the 10th, and I'm feeling impatient as fuck qpoekfqeopfekqf
The fact that I'm getting so much gender envy from pretty people on my feed doesn't help .w.
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